Currently Listening Illuminate By David Crowder Band see related

Can I just say that I love college.
And I love my friends!
I've got some of the best there is!
And I love that we have random worship nights!

During our worship night
I got to thinking.. about...
unconditional love.

Lord who am I
compared to your glory Oh Lord
Lord who am I compared to your majasty
I'm your beloved
Your creation
and you love me as I am
You've called me chosen
for your kingdom
Unashamed to call me your own
I'm your beloved

I screw up time and time again.
I have many flaws.
I contintue to make mistakes.
But God takes me as I am.
He loves me still.
I'm His beloved.
Does that blow anyone else's mind?
Even though I mess up
Even though I'm one big weakness
God continues to call me His own.
His creation.

Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it upto You who’s throned
And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord
Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
You're my delights, be my everything
And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now

I can't wait til Mission Trip and Sky Ranch.
It's going to be an amazing summer!

p.s. I don't know why I've been writing in here more lately.
I went from like once every 6 months or so to every other day.

Currently Listening Taylor Swift By Taylor Swift see related

God, I'm not quite sure what you are tryin to teach me through this,
but I'm ready to learn.

I do know that if I continue to desire the things of this world,
I'll never be satisfied,
I'll never be fulfilled.
Jesus is all that can complete me!

My prayer is that God will break me this summer
That He will wreck my life
I pray he does some major work on my heart
I'm ready for some change!

I think it's about time to reread Lady In Waiting
or maybe Irresistible Revolution..
or maybe Blue Like Jazz...
or maybe I should branch out and read something new...
nah.. they are just too good, I need to reread them!

p.s. sad, sad year for dallas sports fans... =( 

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy

If we weren't friends... would you even care?

update on sky:
just got my lifeguard cert there and i'm sooo pumped again!
i can't wait!
although, one of the perks about sky was that i would have a new scenery
and get my mind of things,
come to find out, i'll have a constant reminder... ah well.

saaaad day for my boyssss... we gave up. we're done. but i still love them.

I'm not real sure that anyone even looks at xanga anymore, that's why I feel I can let some stuff out on here... anyway...

So I'm in def. need of some encouragement.
Something to tell me I'm doing the right thing. 
I was soo pumped about Sky Ranch, and still am 
But Satan has been getting in my head.
I keep thinking about all I'm going to miss out on.
Hanging out with my friends for my last summer as a college student.
Spending time with the fam at the lake.
Going crazy at Mav's playoff parties.
I know Sky Ranch is where I'm suppose to be.
But... I just need the encouragement.
When I first talked to my mom about working at Sky Ranch,
she asked me if that's what I wanted to do,
and I say yes, but that it was going to be a stretch for me,
it was going to take me out of my comfort zone,
it was going to grow me.
She completely agreed with me,
and thought it would be really good for me.
I can already see some great things being done in my life bc of Sky
But I still hear all my friends talking about their summer plans.
And I must say I'm a little jealous.
I'm one of those persons that hates missing out on stuff.
I hate being the one person sitting around, outside of the inside joke.
The person that doesn't know the story.
Can't laugh because "you had to be there."
I guess I just feel I'm going to come back and its going to happen a lot.
And I'll have a bunch of stories to tell,
but nobody will know the people I'm talking about.
No one will be there to laugh with me.
I know, I know... I'm going to have one of the best summers EVER.
And I know it's Satan just getting in my head.
he doesn't want me to be excited about this.
he doesn't want the Lord to work in my life.
But that's why I need the encouragement.

I really miss you Mookastick... it's times like these that I really need your encouragement and your push. I miss you.

I leave with some lyrics from a friend's song:
You think your choice is heads or tails,  you should know your way fails. 
You're falling fast, it's time you choose. 
Is it your life or His you're willing to loose?
Why do we have to change? This is what i need to know.
Why do we have to leave? Why is it so hard to let go? 
Differentiate, right from wrong. patiently waiting all day long. 
You tell me to leave, time to go, change is the only way to grow.
Show me your heart, reveal how to cry. Just let go of this world and say goodbye. Tell me the plans You have for me, open my eyes and make me see.
No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind conceived what's in Your Word.
But I know You understand cause You built it with Your two hands.